Monday, 19 April 2010

A Dedication from Afar

Deng Sayang,

Today is your 34th birthday. I know there's nothing between us anymore, but still, I can't help thinking about your birthday, our past celebrations, our good times, our bad times, and everything we've shared the last eight years that we were together.

I am moving on with my life, and I wish you all the best too. I want us to resolve our pending issues so that the clouds overshadowing us all this while will go away. I am happy with my life, and I hope you will be too.

I wish I can just call and tell you I love you and I miss you, but I can't do that anymore. You'll always be my first love, the man who taught me how it's like to love and lose, the value of sacrifice, of being there for each other, of accepting each other's flaws and faults, of valueing and appreciating each other's presence, and many more.

I'm glad we're separated by the sea. So here's my dedication to you from afar. Happy Birthday, and I wish you all the best.



Need You Now

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now

Ooo, baby, I need you now


Love,
Deng Sue

Sorry for my melancholic mode today:). I'm fine though, smiling as always, laughing as always. But deep in my heart, I do think about the significance that is today. Bear with me ya..it's just for this one day:)

3 comments:

  1. Hi Ray, Everyone of us is entitled to a little off day like this one that you had yesterday.

    Go on be miserable and melancholic, put on some sad songs...

    Usually you'd feel a tad better the next day. Don't know about you but usually a little retail theraphy or some self indulgence at the spa or something helps.

    Feel better okay!!

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  2. Hi Eti,
    Thanks:)..I wasn;t feeling miserable pun, more on melancholic and just taking that slow stroll down the memory lane. Otherwise I kept busy with work (having a deadline), and like you said, to beat the stress(?) or the melancholy, I danced. Yeppss..had a good sweat session at my gym after work, doing my BodyJam. Alhamdulillah, I'm OK:)

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  3. Good to know Ray, yup nothing beats a good workout session at the gym!!!

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